I wanted to update my journal even though I don't have time because I realized how far from current reality the last one was.

this semester of Graduate School has been a strange and almost pointless struggle to get people to understand my abilities and disabilities so they will allow me to do the things I can rather than just outright rejecting me because of my disabilities.

I'm walking on Faith, praying constantly, not really sure exactly where He is leading me, but I'm following him. I'm going on when I think I can't, and trying not to be set on any path because I know the turn will come suddenly and I need t be ready as soon as He reveals it.

I've learned a lot this semester, but not the things I set out to learn, and it isn't taking me in the direction I thought I wanted to go, I thought He wanted me to go.

but whatever happens, I have tried very hard and I have done it all for Him and know without a doubt he will make good of it if I just keep following Him. I don't have to see the road ahead, or the end, I just need to listen for him and be ready when my turn comes, ready to take that turn. I just realized that has a double meaning and I mean both meanings.

I have three major papers and a major test all in one class all due MONDAY because I am behind. Academic survival for the semester depends on what I am able to so the next 3 days.

and after than I turn my entire attention to my other class which I am farther behind in but the teacher is more understanding. Chances are I will take an incomplete in that one, and will still be working on it over Christmas break.

why then am I writing a NaNo novel? but It is not really possible for me to work on culture studies 24 hours a day every day for a whole week. but it's not a new story, just backstory for the same old story (destiny of dreams)I'm writing about Alexandreil and Jonathan growing up together and traveling to HomeWorld and D'zeron.

I dunno if anyone reads my journal anymore, except Erica, but there it is in case you were wondering what I'm up to these days.


I took a bunch of territorial cell phone pictures for Austin, but I haven't had time to figure out how to get them off the phone and onto the computer yet.

maybe in a few months I'll have time.


Next semester I'll probably be taking only a writing class, but I might have to be working, since I have no financial aid now.


I still check messages here at least every few days, even though I'm not posting or commenting much, and not responding to everything.