lies I tell myself, still

I wrote this song this morning on my way to school it's one of those random singing in the car songs which tend to be dreamlike, non-intentional outpourings of emotions usually far removed from my actual thought, yet more true somehow to my actual feelings.

first two lines are borrowed from something totally different. the closer we come to stating the truth in words the less likely that anyone will understand.

that is what frustrates me about writing poetry...but this is not written poetry this is spontaneously sung lyrics which I just transcribed. there was no force involved in this creation

regretfully, I still own my memories. you'd think I would be able to just resign myself to that and go on, I guess I'm just at a point of despair where all the damage that can be done seems to have been already done, so I've nothing left to lose.

meantime, I seem to be doing well.

OH OH YEAH THE TITLE ...i forgot to mention, I couldn't come up with a title so I prayed about it because I thought the title could be important, and that's what came to me, and although it is not literally true, it puts this in exactly the true perspective... framed with ambivalence